1 00:00:00,000 --> 00:00:01,880 I was in New [music] York and I was 2 00:00:01,880 --> 00:00:03,400 having a really hard time with the job 3 00:00:03,400 --> 00:00:05,360 just because of how taxing it was, the 4 00:00:05,360 --> 00:00:07,205 emotional capacity that I was having 5 00:00:07,205 --> 00:00:09,320 [music] to get through every day. 6 00:00:09,320 --> 00:00:11,000 And 7 00:00:11,000 --> 00:00:13,240 I decided to delete my Instagram because 8 00:00:13,240 --> 00:00:14,420 I just felt like I was so addicted 9 00:00:14,420 --> 00:00:15,040 [music] 10 00:00:15,040 --> 00:00:17,160 to this kind of false version of my life 11 00:00:17,160 --> 00:00:19,440 that it was just taking over. I would be 12 00:00:19,440 --> 00:00:20,960 on set working, I'd come and sit in 13 00:00:20,960 --> 00:00:21,960 [music] my chair and just scroll, 14 00:00:21,960 --> 00:00:23,120 scroll, scroll, scroll, scroll and it 15 00:00:23,120 --> 00:00:24,040 was 16 00:00:24,040 --> 00:00:26,600 it was becoming a problem. I was just 17 00:00:26,600 --> 00:00:28,165 obsessed with it and I was obsessed 18 00:00:28,165 --> 00:00:29,160 [music] to find out what people were 19 00:00:29,160 --> 00:00:31,120 saying and how people what they thought 20 00:00:31,120 --> 00:00:32,400 about me. 21 00:00:32,400 --> 00:00:33,800 So I decided to 22 00:00:33,800 --> 00:00:35,080 make an announcement, [music] which 23 00:00:35,080 --> 00:00:37,000 unfortunately we have to do, and say 24 00:00:37,000 --> 00:00:38,320 that I'm taking a break from social 25 00:00:38,320 --> 00:00:40,360 media and I and I tried to position 26 00:00:40,360 --> 00:00:41,265 myself 27 00:00:41,265 --> 00:00:41,360 >> [music] 28 00:00:41,360 --> 00:00:42,600 >> and say like I'm taking a break from 29 00:00:42,600 --> 00:00:44,040 social media because I feel like my 30 00:00:44,040 --> 00:00:46,440 mental health will benefit from it. And 31 00:00:46,440 --> 00:00:47,920 the thing that really upset me is the 32 00:00:47,920 --> 00:00:49,760 press ran [music] with that and they 33 00:00:49,760 --> 00:00:52,640 tried to make out that I was having this 34 00:00:52,640 --> 00:00:54,640 mental breakdown. If I was having a 35 00:00:54,640 --> 00:00:56,400 mental breakdown, that's not for you to 36 00:00:56,400 --> 00:00:58,360 report on. They they they took the story 37 00:00:58,360 --> 00:01:00,400 in the wrong direction and they they 38 00:01:00,400 --> 00:01:02,760 painted again this negative light on 39 00:01:02,760 --> 00:01:05,360 mental health [music] rather than saying 40 00:01:05,360 --> 00:01:07,400 oh, he's doing it, it's okay that he's 41 00:01:07,400 --> 00:01:09,160 doing it, so we should all feel okay to 42 00:01:09,160 --> 00:01:10,760 do it too. They [music] were saying oh, 43 00:01:10,760 --> 00:01:12,560 look, he's not the perfect 44 00:01:12,560 --> 00:01:14,240 happy-go-lucky kid you think he is. He's 45 00:01:14,240 --> 00:01:16,280 having a nervous breakdown in New York. 46 00:01:16,280 --> 00:01:18,240 Like the the message of our show is that 47 00:01:18,240 --> 00:01:19,360 asking for [music] help should be 48 00:01:19,360 --> 00:01:21,240 something that we celebrate. 49 00:01:21,240 --> 00:01:22,640 >> Yeah. If you're struggling, if you need 50 00:01:22,640 --> 00:01:23,720 help, 51 00:01:23,720 --> 00:01:25,880 if you feel bad and you wake up and and 52 00:01:25,880 --> 00:01:27,780 you go to a friend, a therapist, a 53 00:01:27,780 --> 00:01:29,560 [music] teacher, an employee, or a 54 00:01:29,560 --> 00:01:31,760 colleague, you can say I'm really I need 55 00:01:31,760 --> 00:01:33,480 some help. That should be something that 56 00:01:33,480 --> 00:01:34,760 we give you a pat on [music] the back. 57 00:01:34,760 --> 00:01:36,600 Like I would love to help you. 58 00:01:36,600 --> 00:01:38,880 I'm I'm delighted that you asked me. 59 00:01:38,880 --> 00:01:39,800 Yeah, it doesn't have to be a 60 00:01:39,800 --> 00:01:40,600 professional. 61 00:01:40,600 --> 00:01:40,871 >> Yeah. 62 00:01:40,871 --> 00:01:41,000 >> [music] 63 00:01:41,000 --> 00:01:43,600 >> I go to my friends a lot and and, you 64 00:01:43,600 --> 00:01:44,680 know, some friends are better than 65 00:01:44,680 --> 00:01:46,240 others in certain situations. I've got 66 00:01:46,240 --> 00:01:47,520 some friends that are very much like 67 00:01:47,520 --> 00:01:48,960 pull your socks up and get on with it 68 00:01:48,960 --> 00:01:50,520 and then other friends who are like come 69 00:01:50,520 --> 00:01:52,080 here and have a cry on my shoulder, but 70 00:01:52,080 --> 00:01:54,880 like it it varies. So I I just really 71 00:01:54,880 --> 00:01:56,591 hope that that's what the show can do is 72 00:01:56,591 --> 00:01:58,800 [music] is sort of paint this positive 73 00:01:58,800 --> 00:02:00,520 picture of asking for help is something 74 00:02:00,520 --> 00:02:01,320 to be proud of. 75 00:02:01,320 --> 00:02:02,760 >> Well, that's a great message and and I 76 00:02:02,760 --> 00:02:04,600 think we all we all need to hear it. And 77 00:02:04,600 --> 00:02:06,240 I want to go back a little bit because 78 00:02:06,240 --> 00:02:07,680 you 79 00:02:07,680 --> 00:02:10,346 decided to take a break from acting. 80 00:02:10,346 --> 00:02:10,960 [music] 81 00:02:10,960 --> 00:02:12,680 >> It's only a break from acting because 82 00:02:12,680 --> 00:02:14,120 I'm an actor. 83 00:02:14,120 --> 00:02:16,320 It's not like the acting itself. I just 84 00:02:16,320 --> 00:02:18,200 have been so lucky that in my life I've 85 00:02:18,200 --> 00:02:20,840 been working so much. I just wanted to 86 00:02:20,840 --> 00:02:22,959 take a break. I just wanted to be in one 87 00:02:22,959 --> 00:02:24,280 place for a while. I wanted to be with 88 00:02:24,280 --> 00:02:26,066 my friends, be with my family, 89 00:02:26,066 --> 00:02:26,120 >> [music] 90 00:02:26,120 --> 00:02:28,120 >> move into my house. 91 00:02:28,120 --> 00:02:30,200 So, it wasn't necessarily 92 00:02:30,200 --> 00:02:31,760 oh my god, I need to have a break from 93 00:02:31,760 --> 00:02:33,800 acting cuz it's [music] too much. I just 94 00:02:33,800 --> 00:02:35,400 needed to have a break from traveling 95 00:02:35,400 --> 00:02:38,240 and and working and and also, I've done 96 00:02:38,240 --> 00:02:40,959 so much of my growing up on the road. I 97 00:02:40,959 --> 00:02:42,520 needed to do a lot of growing up at 98 00:02:42,520 --> 00:02:45,560 home. Paying my water bill, paying my 99 00:02:45,560 --> 00:02:47,680 council tax and sorting out my bins and 100 00:02:47,680 --> 00:02:48,920 all that sort of stuff that they don't 101 00:02:48,920 --> 00:02:50,560 teach you at school, which I think there 102 00:02:50,560 --> 00:02:51,800 should be a lesson. I think there should 103 00:02:51,800 --> 00:02:52,920 be a lesson at school that's called 104 00:02:52,920 --> 00:02:53,959 life, 105 00:02:53,959 --> 00:02:56,600 which is like laundry, basic cooking, 106 00:02:56,600 --> 00:02:57,800 like 107 00:02:57,800 --> 00:02:58,800 I didn't realize [music] you have to pay 108 00:02:58,800 --> 00:03:00,160 for your water. I just thought that was 109 00:03:00,160 --> 00:03:01,959 a luxury of living in England that the 110 00:03:01,959 --> 00:03:03,160 water comes out of the sky and then it 111 00:03:03,160 --> 00:03:05,160 comes out of your tap. I was so behind 112 00:03:05,160 --> 00:03:07,680 on my water bill. I didn't realize. I'm 113 00:03:07,680 --> 00:03:09,297 up to date now, don't worry. 114 00:03:09,297 --> 00:03:09,560 >> [laughter] 115 00:03:09,560 --> 00:03:10,840 >> So, yeah, I just wanted to take this 116 00:03:10,840 --> 00:03:12,600 break and it's a shame again talking 117 00:03:12,600 --> 00:03:14,239 about the press and how they can spin 118 00:03:14,239 --> 00:03:16,440 things [music] and that they kind of ran 119 00:03:16,440 --> 00:03:18,720 with this idea that yes, the show did 120 00:03:18,720 --> 00:03:20,480 break me and yes, it was difficult, but 121 00:03:20,480 --> 00:03:22,000 I could have gone back to work. I was 122 00:03:22,000 --> 00:03:23,440 always planning on taking [music] this 123 00:03:23,440 --> 00:03:24,800 break after this job. 124 00:03:24,800 --> 00:03:26,680 >> I've definitely walked away from a lot. 125 00:03:26,680 --> 00:03:27,200 >> Mhm. 126 00:03:27,200 --> 00:03:28,720 >> And I think had I not walked away from 127 00:03:28,720 --> 00:03:30,640 certain situations, let's just put it at 128 00:03:30,640 --> 00:03:32,720 that, I would be a very different person 129 00:03:32,720 --> 00:03:33,360 today. 130 00:03:33,360 --> 00:03:34,040 >> Mhm. 131 00:03:34,040 --> 00:03:35,040 >> I've been really good at keeping [music] 132 00:03:35,040 --> 00:03:37,200 in touch with my friends, keeping my 133 00:03:37,200 --> 00:03:39,427 family close, listening to the lessons, 134 00:03:39,427 --> 00:03:40,640 [music] 135 00:03:40,640 --> 00:03:42,200 not getting caught up in the Hollywood 136 00:03:42,200 --> 00:03:45,320 hype. Like I really am a massive fan of 137 00:03:45,320 --> 00:03:47,440 making movies, but I really do not like 138 00:03:47,440 --> 00:03:49,800 Hollywood. It is not for me. The 139 00:03:49,800 --> 00:03:51,720 business [music] really scares me. I 140 00:03:51,720 --> 00:03:53,080 understand that I'm a part of that 141 00:03:53,080 --> 00:03:54,840 business and I enjoy my kind of 142 00:03:54,840 --> 00:03:56,457 interactions with it, but that said, 143 00:03:56,457 --> 00:03:57,760 [music] 144 00:03:57,760 --> 00:04:00,040 I am always looking for ways to kind of 145 00:04:00,040 --> 00:04:01,800 remove myself from it, to kind [music] 146 00:04:01,800 --> 00:04:03,880 of just live as normal a life as 147 00:04:03,880 --> 00:04:06,080 possible. But yeah, I definitely think 148 00:04:06,080 --> 00:04:09,800 it has been an ongoing thought, 149 00:04:09,800 --> 00:04:11,880 which is don't lose yourself. I've seen 150 00:04:11,880 --> 00:04:13,959 so many people come before me and lose 151 00:04:13,959 --> 00:04:15,480 themselves, [music] and I've had friends 152 00:04:15,480 --> 00:04:17,160 that I've grown up with that aren't 153 00:04:17,160 --> 00:04:18,720 friends of mine anymore because they've 154 00:04:18,720 --> 00:04:20,680 lost themselves to this business. 155 00:04:20,680 --> 00:04:21,347 And 156 00:04:21,347 --> 00:04:21,680 >> [music] 157 00:04:21,680 --> 00:04:23,800 >> I just am really, really keen to focus 158 00:04:23,800 --> 00:04:25,440 on what makes me happy, which is my 159 00:04:25,440 --> 00:04:27,680 family, [music] it's my friends, it's my 160 00:04:27,680 --> 00:04:30,880 carpentry, my golf, um the charity that 161 00:04:30,880 --> 00:04:32,483 my mom runs. Like that is the stuff 162 00:04:32,483 --> 00:04:33,840 [music] that makes me really happy, and 163 00:04:33,840 --> 00:04:35,680 that's the stuff that I should protect. 164 00:04:35,680 --> 00:04:37,360 My relationship is the thing that I keep 165 00:04:37,360 --> 00:04:40,343 most sacred. I don't talk about it. 166 00:04:40,343 --> 00:04:40,680 >> [music] 167 00:04:40,680 --> 00:04:42,600 >> I try my best to keep it as private as 168 00:04:42,600 --> 00:04:44,360 possible. We both feel very strongly 169 00:04:44,360 --> 00:04:45,960 that that is the [music] healthiest way 170 00:04:45,960 --> 00:04:48,600 for us to to move on as a couple. So I 171 00:04:48,600 --> 00:04:50,840 do try to keep as removed [music] from 172 00:04:50,840 --> 00:04:52,600 it as possible. Like you'll never see me 173 00:04:52,600 --> 00:04:55,320 at an award show I don't have to be at. 174 00:04:55,320 --> 00:04:57,080 I'm never going to a red carpet event 175 00:04:57,080 --> 00:04:59,200 that I'm [music] not in the film of, you 176 00:04:59,200 --> 00:05:00,880 know. I don't want the attention when I 177 00:05:00,880 --> 00:05:03,919 don't need it. I love the spotlight. I 178 00:05:03,919 --> 00:05:05,760 love the pressure that comes with it. 179 00:05:05,760 --> 00:05:07,360 There's a quote from Billie Jean King 180 00:05:07,360 --> 00:05:08,880 that's on the 181 00:05:08,880 --> 00:05:09,640 um 182 00:05:09,640 --> 00:05:11,919 stand at her stadium in New York that 183 00:05:11,919 --> 00:05:14,200 says pressure is a privilege. 184 00:05:14,200 --> 00:05:16,880 And that is so true. Like, oh my god, 185 00:05:16,880 --> 00:05:18,988 feeling pressure on a daily basis in 186 00:05:18,988 --> 00:05:20,640 [music] the capacity that we feel is 187 00:05:20,640 --> 00:05:22,560 such a privilege. I love feeling 188 00:05:22,560 --> 00:05:24,040 pressure. I feel like I thrive under 189 00:05:24,040 --> 00:05:25,560 pressure. The best golf I've ever played 190 00:05:25,560 --> 00:05:27,400 in my life is when there are cameras 191 00:05:27,400 --> 00:05:29,840 around and people are watching. I just 192 00:05:29,840 --> 00:05:31,160 think that that is a really amazing 193 00:05:31,160 --> 00:05:32,919 thing to be able to experience. [music] 194 00:05:32,919 --> 00:05:35,400 So I enjoy it while I can, and then when 195 00:05:35,400 --> 00:05:37,200 it becomes a bit much, I kind of become 196 00:05:37,200 --> 00:05:38,919 a bit of a recluse and I disappear. I 197 00:05:38,919 --> 00:05:40,960 come back to Kingston, I play golf, I 198 00:05:40,960 --> 00:05:42,480 play tennis, I hang out with my friends 199 00:05:42,480 --> 00:05:44,919 and my family, do the pub quiz, and 200 00:05:44,919 --> 00:05:45,960 and and sort of stuff. 201 00:05:45,960 --> 00:05:46,280 >> Yeah. 202 00:05:46,280 --> 00:05:48,320 >> Um so yeah, so it is something I 203 00:05:48,320 --> 00:05:51,280 actively try to do. As I get older, it 204 00:05:51,280 --> 00:05:52,240 only gets easier. 205 00:05:52,240 --> 00:05:53,560 >> Yeah. 206 00:05:53,560 --> 00:05:55,014 One of the things that you mentioned 207 00:05:55,014 --> 00:05:57,240 [music] recently was that you gave up 208 00:05:57,240 --> 00:05:58,640 drinking about a year and a half ago. 209 00:05:58,640 --> 00:05:59,120 >> Yes. 210 00:05:59,120 --> 00:06:00,720 >> And you said it was the hardest thing 211 00:06:00,720 --> 00:06:01,560 you ever did. 212 00:06:01,560 --> 00:06:02,160 >> Yes. 213 00:06:02,160 --> 00:06:03,880 >> And I wanted to know what was so hard 214 00:06:03,880 --> 00:06:06,920 about it for you. Why was it so hard? 215 00:06:06,920 --> 00:06:08,920 >> It's interesting. I I didn't one day 216 00:06:08,920 --> 00:06:11,560 wake up and say I'm giving up drinking. 217 00:06:11,560 --> 00:06:13,200 I just 218 00:06:13,200 --> 00:06:15,400 like many Brits had a very, very boozy 219 00:06:15,400 --> 00:06:17,680 December. Christmas time, I was on 220 00:06:17,680 --> 00:06:20,480 vacation. I was drinking a lot. And I've 221 00:06:20,480 --> 00:06:22,480 always been able to drink a lot. 222 00:06:22,480 --> 00:06:24,000 I think I get my genes from my mom's 223 00:06:24,000 --> 00:06:25,600 side in that thing. Like I can I can 224 00:06:25,600 --> 00:06:26,680 drink. 225 00:06:26,680 --> 00:06:28,280 And I decided to just give up for 226 00:06:28,280 --> 00:06:29,680 January. [music] I just wanted to do Dry 227 00:06:29,680 --> 00:06:32,160 January. And 228 00:06:32,160 --> 00:06:33,520 all I could think about was having a 229 00:06:33,520 --> 00:06:34,560 drink. 230 00:06:34,560 --> 00:06:36,440 It's all I could think about. I I was 231 00:06:36,440 --> 00:06:37,760 waking up thinking about it. I was 232 00:06:37,760 --> 00:06:40,400 checking the clock, when's it 12? 233 00:06:40,400 --> 00:06:42,480 And it just really scared me. I just was 234 00:06:42,480 --> 00:06:43,800 like, wow, maybe 235 00:06:43,800 --> 00:06:45,360 maybe I have a little bit of an alcohol 236 00:06:45,360 --> 00:06:48,069 thing. So, I sort of decided to punish 237 00:06:48,069 --> 00:06:50,040 [music] myself and say I'll do February 238 00:06:50,040 --> 00:06:52,000 as well. I'll do 2 months off. 239 00:06:52,000 --> 00:06:53,280 If I can do 2 months off, then I can 240 00:06:53,280 --> 00:06:54,360 prove to myself that I don't have a 241 00:06:54,360 --> 00:06:56,440 problem. 242 00:06:56,440 --> 00:06:58,400 2 months go by 243 00:06:58,400 --> 00:07:00,440 and I was still really struggling. 244 00:07:00,440 --> 00:07:02,760 I felt like I couldn't be social. I felt 245 00:07:02,760 --> 00:07:04,080 like I couldn't go to the pub and have a 246 00:07:04,080 --> 00:07:05,680 lime soda. 247 00:07:05,680 --> 00:07:07,160 I couldn't go out for dinner. I was 248 00:07:07,160 --> 00:07:09,560 really, really struggling. And [music] I 249 00:07:09,560 --> 00:07:12,360 started to really worry that maybe I had 250 00:07:12,360 --> 00:07:13,880 an alcohol problem. 251 00:07:13,880 --> 00:07:16,280 Um, so I decided that I would wait until 252 00:07:16,280 --> 00:07:17,919 my birthday, which is June 1st. [music] 253 00:07:17,919 --> 00:07:19,680 I said to myself, if I can do 6 months 254 00:07:19,680 --> 00:07:21,640 without alcohol, then I can prove to 255 00:07:21,640 --> 00:07:23,440 myself that I don't have a problem. 256 00:07:23,440 --> 00:07:23,640 >> [music] 257 00:07:23,640 --> 00:07:26,760 >> And by the time I had got to June 1st, I 258 00:07:26,760 --> 00:07:28,560 was the happiest I'd ever been in my 259 00:07:28,560 --> 00:07:29,680 life. 260 00:07:29,680 --> 00:07:31,480 I could sleep [music] better. I could 261 00:07:31,480 --> 00:07:33,560 handle problems better. 262 00:07:33,560 --> 00:07:35,000 Things that would go wrong on set that 263 00:07:35,000 --> 00:07:36,760 would normally set me off, I could take 264 00:07:36,760 --> 00:07:37,850 it in my stride. 265 00:07:37,850 --> 00:07:38,200 >> [music] 266 00:07:38,200 --> 00:07:40,720 >> I had so much such better mental 267 00:07:40,720 --> 00:07:43,000 clarity. I felt healthier. I felt 268 00:07:43,000 --> 00:07:44,200 fitter. [music] 269 00:07:44,200 --> 00:07:46,360 And I just sort of said to myself like 270 00:07:46,360 --> 00:07:48,480 why why am I 271 00:07:48,480 --> 00:07:50,600 enslaved this drink? Why am I so 272 00:07:50,600 --> 00:07:51,960 obsessed by the idea of having this 273 00:07:51,960 --> 00:07:52,800 drink? [music] 274 00:07:52,800 --> 00:07:54,440 And I would look back and recognize that 275 00:07:54,440 --> 00:07:56,845 I would go to events for for work and 276 00:07:56,845 --> 00:07:56,960 >> [music] 277 00:07:56,960 --> 00:07:58,240 >> you know, I can't enjoy myself until 278 00:07:58,240 --> 00:08:00,280 I've had a few beers. 279 00:08:00,280 --> 00:08:01,560 And I just 280 00:08:01,560 --> 00:08:03,920 felt so much pressure. I'm happy to say 281 00:08:03,920 --> 00:08:05,240 like I was definitely [music] addicted 282 00:08:05,240 --> 00:08:07,520 to alcohol. Not shy away from that at 283 00:08:07,520 --> 00:08:09,680 all. Anyone that has a beer every day is 284 00:08:09,680 --> 00:08:11,960 probably got a little bit of a problem. 285 00:08:11,960 --> 00:08:13,880 But yeah, you're right. I would drink 286 00:08:13,880 --> 00:08:15,080 and drink and drink and drink and then 287 00:08:15,080 --> 00:08:16,680 you would just reach that moment where 288 00:08:16,680 --> 00:08:17,560 you're like, "Wow, I shouldn't have had 289 00:08:17,560 --> 00:08:18,880 that last beer." And you wake up the 290 00:08:18,880 --> 00:08:20,000 next day and you have a terrible 291 00:08:20,000 --> 00:08:21,919 headache and you're suffering. I I 292 00:08:21,919 --> 00:08:23,680 bought one of those rings that will tell 293 00:08:23,680 --> 00:08:24,560 you about your sleep. 294 00:08:24,560 --> 00:08:25,280 >> Yeah, Oura Ring. 295 00:08:25,280 --> 00:08:26,919 >> Yeah, and it was amazing cuz I couldn't 296 00:08:26,919 --> 00:08:28,400 sleep. I was like, "Why can't I sleep? 297 00:08:28,400 --> 00:08:30,600 I'm working 14 hours a day. I'm doing 2 298 00:08:30,600 --> 00:08:32,120 hours in the gym. I'm eating really 299 00:08:32,120 --> 00:08:33,525 healthily and I can't sleep. What's 300 00:08:33,525 --> 00:08:35,159 [music] wrong with me?" I bought this 301 00:08:35,159 --> 00:08:37,960 ring and it was booze. It just it was it 302 00:08:37,960 --> 00:08:39,400 completely [music] affected my sleep. 303 00:08:39,400 --> 00:08:41,120 And since I've given it up, I can sleep 304 00:08:41,120 --> 00:08:42,040 anywhere. 305 00:08:42,040 --> 00:08:42,159 >> [laughter] 306 00:08:42,159 --> 00:08:43,680 >> You know? It's also interesting as well 307 00:08:43,680 --> 00:08:46,200 going on nights out and having a great 308 00:08:46,200 --> 00:08:48,680 time as the sober person and [music] 309 00:08:48,680 --> 00:08:50,040 then getting to that point in the night 310 00:08:50,040 --> 00:08:51,880 where people start, you know, spitting 311 00:08:51,880 --> 00:08:53,440 in your ear and everyone's like, "I love 312 00:08:53,440 --> 00:08:55,200 you, man. I love you so much." And 313 00:08:55,200 --> 00:08:56,080 you're like, "Yeah, brilliant. I love 314 00:08:56,080 --> 00:08:57,120 you, too. I'll see you tomorrow. I'm 315 00:08:57,120 --> 00:08:58,280 going to bed." 316 00:08:58,280 --> 00:09:01,000 But I love being that person now. I love 317 00:09:01,000 --> 00:09:02,600 seeing my friends on the golf course at 318 00:09:02,600 --> 00:09:04,880 8:00 a.m. in the morning feeling fresh 319 00:09:04,880 --> 00:09:06,360 and ready to go. And they're sort of 320 00:09:06,360 --> 00:09:09,440 crawling out their car and So yeah, so I 321 00:09:09,440 --> 00:09:10,839 I I'm 322 00:09:10,839 --> 00:09:12,320 over the moon to be sober. [music] I 323 00:09:12,320 --> 00:09:14,440 love it. I really asked myself like, 324 00:09:14,440 --> 00:09:15,720 "Why do you drink? Why are you 325 00:09:15,720 --> 00:09:17,360 drinking?" And a lot of the time my 326 00:09:17,360 --> 00:09:19,320 answer would be to feel more comfortable 327 00:09:19,320 --> 00:09:20,680 in a social environment. 328 00:09:20,680 --> 00:09:21,400 >> Yeah. 329 00:09:21,400 --> 00:09:24,440 >> And I just put myself 330 00:09:24,440 --> 00:09:25,760 in those environments and just would 331 00:09:25,760 --> 00:09:27,200 force myself to be there. I'd force 332 00:09:27,200 --> 00:09:28,839 myself to hang out [music] and and go to 333 00:09:28,839 --> 00:09:30,920 a club or go to a bar or go to a dinner. 334 00:09:30,920 --> 00:09:32,520 But then after a while I sort of was 335 00:09:32,520 --> 00:09:33,520 like, "Mate, you got to pull your socks 336 00:09:33,520 --> 00:09:35,440 up here and you can't just live in your 337 00:09:35,440 --> 00:09:36,760 house all the time. You've got to go out 338 00:09:36,760 --> 00:09:38,280 and enjoy yourself, and [music] and if 339 00:09:38,280 --> 00:09:39,440 you're only enjoying yourself because 340 00:09:39,440 --> 00:09:40,680 you're drinking, then you really do have 341 00:09:40,680 --> 00:09:42,600 a problem. But I think it's different 342 00:09:42,600 --> 00:09:43,920 for everyone. I had a great support 343 00:09:43,920 --> 00:09:45,600 system. Jack is one of my best mates, 344 00:09:45,600 --> 00:09:46,760 and we travel all over the world. He 345 00:09:46,760 --> 00:09:48,760 doesn't drink, and doing it with him was 346 00:09:48,760 --> 00:09:50,120 was a really 347 00:09:50,120 --> 00:09:52,480 helpful experience for me. My brother is 348 00:09:52,480 --> 00:09:53,880 always on the road with me. He was very 349 00:09:53,880 --> 00:09:54,880 supportive. [music] 350 00:09:54,880 --> 00:09:56,360 And yeah, I just really set my mind to 351 00:09:56,360 --> 00:09:57,280 it. I was like, "I really want to do 352 00:09:57,280 --> 00:09:58,760 this. I want to prove to myself I can do 353 00:09:58,760 --> 00:09:59,160 it." 354 00:09:59,160 --> 00:09:59,480 >> Yeah. 355 00:09:59,480 --> 00:10:01,320 >> And then once I felt the health benefits 356 00:10:01,320 --> 00:10:03,840 and started [music] really feeling like 357 00:10:03,840 --> 00:10:04,880 my full self, 358 00:10:04,880 --> 00:10:05,080 >> Yeah. 359 00:10:05,080 --> 00:10:06,720 >> I was like, "Oh my god, this is this is 360 00:10:06,720 --> 00:10:08,040 the best." But do you not drink? 361 00:10:08,040 --> 00:10:09,800 >> I haven't drank for 17 years. 362 00:10:09,800 --> 00:10:12,800 >> No way. Congratulations. That's amazing. 363 00:10:12,800 --> 00:10:14,360 >> Yeah, it's it's incredible. 364 00:10:14,360 --> 00:10:15,000 >> Wow. 365 00:10:15,000 --> 00:10:17,200 >> of the best feelings in the world. 366 00:10:17,200 --> 00:10:18,640 >> I was really [music] lucky that like my 367 00:10:18,640 --> 00:10:20,840 life changed slowly. 368 00:10:20,840 --> 00:10:22,640 I started when I was really young, and 369 00:10:22,640 --> 00:10:24,720 then I had about 10 years before the 370 00:10:24,720 --> 00:10:26,187 Spider-Man thing happened. 371 00:10:26,187 --> 00:10:26,440 >> [music] 372 00:10:26,440 --> 00:10:29,120 >> The Spider-Man of it all was the That 373 00:10:29,120 --> 00:10:32,120 was the big turning point of where like 374 00:10:32,120 --> 00:10:34,047 everything changed. And I was lucky that 375 00:10:34,047 --> 00:10:35,480 [music] I had those formative years to 376 00:10:35,480 --> 00:10:38,320 sort of grow up, make mistakes, learn 377 00:10:38,320 --> 00:10:40,800 about set life, learn about the world of 378 00:10:40,800 --> 00:10:41,907 movie making, 379 00:10:41,907 --> 00:10:42,000 >> [music] 380 00:10:42,000 --> 00:10:44,280 >> and then Spider-Man happened. But it 381 00:10:44,280 --> 00:10:45,720 definitely was a steep learning curve, 382 00:10:45,720 --> 00:10:47,560 for sure. Especially when I was like 383 00:10:47,560 --> 00:10:48,457 really young. 384 00:10:48,457 --> 00:10:48,680 >> [music] 385 00:10:48,680 --> 00:10:50,560 >> Maybe I was even 19 when I was shooting 386 00:10:50,560 --> 00:10:52,080 Civil War. 387 00:10:52,080 --> 00:10:53,480 And 388 00:10:53,480 --> 00:10:55,400 you know, [music] I was a die-hard Well, 389 00:10:55,400 --> 00:10:58,120 I am a die-hard fan of the studio. 390 00:10:58,120 --> 00:10:59,600 I felt like I sort of won some [music] 391 00:10:59,600 --> 00:11:01,320 competition and was allowed to like be 392 00:11:01,320 --> 00:11:03,480 on set for the day. But then when I had 393 00:11:03,480 --> 00:11:05,080 to take my mark and do my scene with 394 00:11:05,080 --> 00:11:06,760 Downey, it was a really overwhelming 395 00:11:06,760 --> 00:11:07,720 experience, and I'm [music] very 396 00:11:07,720 --> 00:11:10,120 grateful to Downey because when I did my 397 00:11:10,120 --> 00:11:11,720 audition, my audition was like eight 398 00:11:11,720 --> 00:11:14,657 pages of dialogue. It was a long scene. 399 00:11:14,657 --> 00:11:14,800 >> [music] 400 00:11:14,800 --> 00:11:16,520 >> I was told by my agents to learn the 401 00:11:16,520 --> 00:11:18,360 lines exactly. 402 00:11:18,360 --> 00:11:20,200 And that was kind of like 403 00:11:20,200 --> 00:11:21,520 a bit of [music] advice, but also 404 00:11:21,520 --> 00:11:23,440 because I'd been really lazy earlier in 405 00:11:23,440 --> 00:11:25,792 self-tapes, and I would rewrite things 406 00:11:25,792 --> 00:11:27,240 [music] and and change it so it fit my 407 00:11:27,240 --> 00:11:28,720 mouth better. 408 00:11:28,720 --> 00:11:30,160 But they said in this instance, you have 409 00:11:30,160 --> 00:11:32,560 to learn it perfectly. 410 00:11:32,560 --> 00:11:34,000 And then when we did my first take with 411 00:11:34,000 --> 00:11:35,600 Downey, [music] 412 00:11:35,600 --> 00:11:37,880 he just started improvising 413 00:11:37,880 --> 00:11:40,040 and changing everything in the script, 414 00:11:40,040 --> 00:11:41,920 which kind of gave me license to kind of 415 00:11:41,920 --> 00:11:43,320 follow him. 416 00:11:43,320 --> 00:11:45,120 So in that 417 00:11:45,120 --> 00:11:46,600 scene, [music] I just kind of followed 418 00:11:46,600 --> 00:11:48,520 his lead and and we improvised and we 419 00:11:48,520 --> 00:11:49,960 did a bunch of stuff and I thought after 420 00:11:49,960 --> 00:11:51,040 that audition, I was like, "Oh, I've 421 00:11:51,040 --> 00:11:52,240 definitely got this. Like [music] that 422 00:11:52,240 --> 00:11:54,200 went so well." But what he did which is 423 00:11:54,200 --> 00:11:56,480 so great and so sweet is when I got to 424 00:11:56,480 --> 00:11:58,880 set, my scene had been cut down 425 00:11:58,880 --> 00:12:00,880 significantly from what I'd done in the 426 00:12:00,880 --> 00:12:04,160 audition to now 427 00:12:04,160 --> 00:12:05,960 a page and a half [music] or maybe even 428 00:12:05,960 --> 00:12:07,480 two pages. 429 00:12:07,480 --> 00:12:09,360 And we start shooting the scene and 430 00:12:09,360 --> 00:12:10,800 Downey piped up and was like, "Where's 431 00:12:10,800 --> 00:12:12,480 all the kids' lines gone?" [music] 432 00:12:12,480 --> 00:12:14,200 And the Russo sort of said, "Well, look, 433 00:12:14,200 --> 00:12:16,800 you know, this is already a 140-page 434 00:12:16,800 --> 00:12:19,040 script. Like we [music] can't um spend 435 00:12:19,040 --> 00:12:20,920 too much time on this." 436 00:12:20,920 --> 00:12:21,920 And Downey was the one that was like, 437 00:12:21,920 --> 00:12:22,840 "No, no, no, you're going to want to 438 00:12:22,840 --> 00:12:23,960 spend some time [music] on this. Like 439 00:12:23,960 --> 00:12:25,200 let's shoot the whole thing from the 440 00:12:25,200 --> 00:12:27,240 audition. You can always cut it, but 441 00:12:27,240 --> 00:12:28,840 you'd want to have it." 442 00:12:28,840 --> 00:12:30,400 And they used all of it. 443 00:12:30,400 --> 00:12:32,200 >> Yeah, that's cool. 444 00:12:32,200 --> 00:12:33,400 >> And I think that's really cool and I'd 445 00:12:33,400 --> 00:12:35,600 love to one day do that. If I would be 446 00:12:35,600 --> 00:12:37,160 lucky enough to somehow bring Miles 447 00:12:37,160 --> 00:12:39,160 Morales into 448 00:12:39,160 --> 00:12:41,480 my Spider-Man universe and into the MCU, 449 00:12:41,480 --> 00:12:43,600 I'd love to 450 00:12:43,600 --> 00:12:45,880 to do for a young kid what Downey did 451 00:12:45,880 --> 00:12:47,000 for me. 452 00:12:47,000 --> 00:12:49,560 When I signed my contract 453 00:12:49,560 --> 00:12:51,280 for Spider-Man 1, 454 00:12:51,280 --> 00:12:54,120 I signed a six-picture deal. I was 18 455 00:12:54,120 --> 00:12:55,839 years old. 456 00:12:55,839 --> 00:12:58,040 I was more excited than I'd ever been 457 00:12:58,040 --> 00:13:00,240 about anything [music] ever. 458 00:13:00,240 --> 00:13:03,320 And for the last 10 years, I have been 459 00:13:03,320 --> 00:13:05,960 at the beck and call of Marvel and Sony. 460 00:13:05,960 --> 00:13:08,120 And proudly so, it's been 461 00:13:08,120 --> 00:13:10,800 the best experience of my life. 462 00:13:10,800 --> 00:13:13,160 I'm now at a juncture where 463 00:13:13,160 --> 00:13:15,640 I can say no. 464 00:13:15,640 --> 00:13:17,040 And now that I've been afforded that 465 00:13:17,040 --> 00:13:18,680 power, [music] 466 00:13:18,680 --> 00:13:22,160 I am struggling to 467 00:13:22,160 --> 00:13:23,694 figure out what is the right thing 468 00:13:23,694 --> 00:13:24,720 [music] to do. 469 00:13:24,720 --> 00:13:27,560 The learning curve that I'm on right now 470 00:13:27,560 --> 00:13:29,440 is dealing [music] with that new sense 471 00:13:29,440 --> 00:13:32,000 of power, making sure that I don't abuse 472 00:13:32,000 --> 00:13:33,480 it, 473 00:13:33,480 --> 00:13:35,480 but making sure that I do the best thing 474 00:13:35,480 --> 00:13:37,120 for [music] me 475 00:13:37,120 --> 00:13:40,400 rather than for the studio. 476 00:13:40,400 --> 00:13:41,360 And really the best thing for the 477 00:13:41,360 --> 00:13:43,000 character. 478 00:13:43,000 --> 00:13:44,160 I don't want to make another movie for 479 00:13:44,160 --> 00:13:46,440 the sake of making it, but I want to do 480 00:13:46,440 --> 00:13:47,760 it for the right reasons. [music] And 481 00:13:47,760 --> 00:13:50,440 now I am 482 00:13:50,440 --> 00:13:52,680 navigating and figuring out what [music] 483 00:13:52,680 --> 00:13:55,160 having that kind of power means and that 484 00:13:55,160 --> 00:13:56,360 responsibility. 485 00:13:56,360 --> 00:13:56,680 >> Yeah. 486 00:13:56,680 --> 00:13:58,400 >> And I'm by no means complaining. It's a 487 00:13:58,400 --> 00:14:00,320 wonderful [music] place to be, 488 00:14:00,320 --> 00:14:01,680 but it is something that keeps me up at 489 00:14:01,680 --> 00:14:03,000 night and I'm constantly thinking of 490 00:14:03,000 --> 00:14:05,720 like, is this the right thing to do? 491 00:14:05,720 --> 00:14:06,840 Am I going to do justice to the 492 00:14:06,840 --> 00:14:08,400 character? 493 00:14:08,400 --> 00:14:11,080 Am I going to do justice to the fans? 494 00:14:11,080 --> 00:14:12,280 I definitely don't want to just make a 495 00:14:12,280 --> 00:14:14,129 movie for the sake of it, 496 00:14:14,129 --> 00:14:14,320 >> [music] 497 00:14:14,320 --> 00:14:15,400 >> cuz that's not what Spider-Man 498 00:14:15,400 --> 00:14:18,480 represents. I owe everything to the fans 499 00:14:18,480 --> 00:14:21,280 of [music] of Marvel and and myself. 500 00:14:21,280 --> 00:14:23,520 They've been so kind and generous to me. 501 00:14:23,520 --> 00:14:25,120 Like after Civil War came [music] out, I 502 00:14:25,120 --> 00:14:26,880 felt like Civil War was my audition to 503 00:14:26,880 --> 00:14:28,280 the world. 504 00:14:28,280 --> 00:14:30,640 Like I'd gotten the part of Spider-Man. 505 00:14:30,640 --> 00:14:31,920 I did the film [music] with the Russo 506 00:14:31,920 --> 00:14:33,440 brothers and that came out and that to 507 00:14:33,440 --> 00:14:36,360 me felt like my will you embrace me as 508 00:14:36,360 --> 00:14:38,720 Spider-Man? And they did and I'm so 509 00:14:38,720 --> 00:14:41,760 grateful [music] that they did.